Wednesday, May 24, 2017

The Storm by Redheaded Writing Hood



I was inspired by what seemed to be the tears of God falling here in Georgia after the Manchester attack on May 22, 2017
This poem came out of a storm in my life and those posts are here: Storms Part 1  and the time I wrote the poem Storms Part 2


You number my wanderings; Put my tears into Your bottle; Are they not in Your book? Psalm 56: 8

The Storm
You say no one cares for you
Well that's not true 'cause I do
And God does too!
Oh that I could fix your problem
I'd mend you up,
You'd no longer be stuck
In that addiction or depression,
The trials that come in rapid succession,
But what can I do?
I cannot fix you!
I can't make you believe.
I can't even relieve
That deep ache in your heart
Just where do I start?
Don't do nothing! She yelled at me,
So what shall I do?
Scream and shout? And run about?
Perhaps sit and pout?
I'll fight a war upon my knees
In quietness and confidence shall be my strength,
He keeps my prayers and my tears
Perhaps the overflow makes the rain?
To water all the pain upon the earth,
I'll thank Him for this thorn,
I'll Praise Him even when I'm worn,
Because He carries me through the storm.
Yes He walks to me on the tempest sea,
The rain brings life back to my dying tree,
And one day through the clouds I'll see...
The rainbow

From my book, The Seven Story Tree

Here is a beautiful new song by Rend Collective called, Weep with me 

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Live Long and Prosper!

 I decided to do another excerpt- this is from my blog post,  The One Story House 
Reading this today has encouraged me yet again and brought me to tears because of what He said to me about my brothers:  Don't grieve for them any longer Susan , rejoice! And know they're here cheering you on to victory. Don't give up! You have the blessing of My mercy.


 "I know we call this our home, but I still feel alone" Sanctus Real, "Lead Me"

When God told Moses the 10 Commandments on Mount Sinai He added an "addendum" to the second commandment, He said: "You shall not make for yourself a carved image—any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth; you shall not bow down to them nor serve them." He could of stopped right there that's enough explanation, isn't it? I mean comparatively most of the other commandments are short, "(6)You shall not murder. (7)You shall not commit adultery.(8)You shall not steal. (9)You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor."




But God continued, "For I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate Me, but showing mercy to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My commandments." Exodus 20:4-6


Wow God, in the Old Testament You seem pretty harsh, what's up with that? "Visiting iniquity"? What IS that anyways?

Well Susan it's just the consequences of not following Me. I want everyone to have a great life, you know "Live long and prosper"?



But God that's from Star Trek.

Well I said it first. I love all mankind, Susan. I sent my own Son to die for everyone. The Old Testament was before that and I was teaching people that they can't do it themselves! You can't keep the law without My help! And if I did nothing about all the evil in the world. How would that make you feel?

I guess like you didn't care.

Exactly! And "Visiting iniquity" isn't even something I do. It's a law, I've set up. You live what you see growing up. Your children DO learn more from what you ARE than what you teach! But you're always learning My Word and you see these things in your family and you're making changes and yours IS the blessed generation Susan, you and your family love Me.

Wow God really? But what about my brothers?

Well Susan, they reaped what they sowed, they had the consequences of a life lived not seeking Me and My ways. Broke your Mom's (AND your Dad's!) heart, it did. But they're HERE now and I'll tell you what, they're having a ball! That short and full of sorrow time was just a blink in light of eternity. Don't grieve for them any longer Susan rejoice! And know they're here cheering you on to victory. Don't give up! You have the blessing of My mercy.

Thank-You Lord for saving me!

Your welcome Susan!


For I will contend with him who contends with you, And I will save your children. Isaiah 49:25


Click here to hear me say my poem/rap from, The Seven Story Tree called, It's A New Day

Monday, May 1, 2017

Seven Ways To Keep A Good Attitude When You're Going Through Hell


 Speaking the truth in love, may (we) grow up into Him in all things, who is the Head, even Christ... Ephesians 4:15
Let me tell you what's helped me keep my joy despite my somewhat Hellish circumstances.  

This is a new installation in my Seven Ways series, similar to Seven Ways to Improve Your Life For Eternity but this is for when you're going through tough stuff. Some stuff is similar (*Gotta have Jesus!) and some is different.

#1 Stay close to God get in His Word and Pray and Praise DAILY 
 This Book of the Law shall not depart out of thy mouth, but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein. For then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success. Joshua 1:8

#2 Work out regularly; this is just second nature to me now, anyone who knows me knows this. I was even jogging for a little while until I started having feet problems. 


Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown. Therefore I run thus: not with uncertainty. Thus I fight: not as one who beats the air. But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others, I myself should become disqualified. I Corinthians 9: 24-27

#3 No drugs or alcohol!!!!!! This should be a no-brainer to anyone with alcoholism or addictions in their family but too many have a problem with it and it becomes more tempting with stress, so know your triggers and get help if you think you may have an addiction. Rehab IS NOT for the faint- hearted!!! It's for the BRAVE SOULS who CHOOSE LIFE!!!!
 Woe to men mighty at drinking wine, Woe to men valiant for mixing intoxicating drink...Isaiah 5:20

TBH And I have been very open here about this- I'm more tempted by the man offering to buy me a drink than the actual drink itself! (I order Coke usually) This is one reason why I stopped regularly saying poems in bars.

#4 Cut out the negativity! Don't hang around negative people who pull you down! No negative self talk either! 
Listening to Joyce Meyer, Joel Osteen and music helps me with this so much!  And I even find secular music encouraging too.
Like You'll be Okay by A Great Big World, I found while searching for the awesome Christian song You're Gona Be Okay by Brian and Jenn Johnson 
Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.   Philippians 4:8

#5 Eat healthier! They say the diet is mostly what contributes to weight loss, so this is what I need to concentrate on right now but I feel I'm improving all the time and I no longer have the excuse that I'm buying junk food for the kids cause they don't live with me. And besides no one NEEDS that junk!!! 

But Daniel purposed in his heart that he would not defile himself with the portion of the king’s delicacies, nor with the wine which he drank...Daniel 1:8

#6 See your doctor and/or therapist if needed. If you are too proud to admit you have a problem you could use help with? You'll spend all your life stuck in that misery! Why not let the truth set you free? 
But He gives more grace. Therefore He says: “God resists the proud, But gives grace to the humble.”  James 4:6

 #7 Seek God and love Him! Put Him first in your life and everything else will fall into place. 

Jesus said to him, “‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ Matthew 22:37

Found a quote that goes well here:
Patience is more than endurance. A saint’s life is in the hands of God like a bow and arrow in the hands of an archer. God is aiming at something the saint cannot see, and He stretches and strains, and every now and again the saint says — “I cannot stand any more.” God does not heed, He goes on stretching till His purpose is in sight, then He lets fly. Trust yourself in God’s hands. For what have you need of patience just now? Maintain your relationship to Jesus Christ by the patience of faith. “Though He slay me, yet will I wait for Him” (rv). Wow! Thanks Oswald Chambers! 

Friday, April 21, 2017

Surfing Lessons



When your fear is currency
And you feel that urgency
You want peace but there's war in your head
Maybe that's where life is born
When our fa├žades are torn
Pain gives birth to the promise ahead


Switchfoot, "I Won't Let You Go"

 
My poems and my blog are to encourage and for reminders to people, life lessons if you will and sometimes I need to read it again! Also my posts sometimes tend to be long winded, so here's an excerpt that was helpful to ME: From  "Cowards, Codependency and UnConditional Love" about SURFING LESSONS: 

I've been loving the band Switchfoot for awhile now but only just last year (2013)? I think, that I learned that they are from California like me AND that "Switchfoot" is a surfing term! Duh! I always said, "What an unusual name. What does it mean?"
In December 2013 I wrote a post about depression, suicide and cutting and in it I talked about our adventures in Boca Raton and trying to surf.  (Sea Monsters)

Well I took those pictures to Sparks (K-2nd graders- Awanas) last Sunday and also some pics from my last post.  In that post I tell the story of Peter walking on the water to Jesus. First I asked "Who likes to go to the beach?" Then I asked, "Who remembers which Disney Princess I am?" Because another time I told them how Disney's "The Little Mermaid" parallels the story of Jesus and redemption (and that my nickname was "Mermaid" in high school.) They yelled out, "Ariel!" Then I told them the story about the disciples in the boat- Alone! Then I said how when the weather was great (stormy) we DID NOT have Uncle Dave's surf board and on the next day we did and it was CALM AS A LAKE! LOL THEN I SAID JESUS ALLOWS "STORMS" IN OUR LIVES SO WE CAN LEARN HOW TO SURF. 



On the day we borrowed the surf board the ocean was calm as a lake! I guess I'll have to visit my fam in Cally and learn to surf there!

Here's a new poem for my next book of poetry, RED: Redeemed- Equipped- Delivered



He's my Keeper
He keeps me,
I look back and see,
Wow, he wanted me?
How'd I get outta that one?
Lord, THANK-YOU!
There's a washin' in the rain,
There's a purpose in the pain,
If the waves never came,
How could I learn to surf,
Or swim?
I'd sink!
Think!
These trials produce patience
You'll be tenacious,
I'm making gold,
Something Beautiful
YOU-
Full of Power, Peace, Patience
Joy, Jesus,
Justice will prevail
After all of your travail,
The joy of giving birth
You are the salt of the earth!




Tuesday, April 18, 2017

My Story







My old website is gone, so I decided to put some things from it here, starting with this revised version of my testimony:
My name is Susan Story. I was born October 13, 1966 in the San Fernando Valley, California, the youngest in a family of seven.  We went to a Presbyterian Church where my parents were active members. I thought I was a Christian because I went to Church and I believed in Jesus.
My dad worked for IBM and in 1979 they moved us to Boca Raton, Florida. My husband-to-be’s family was transferred from New York to Boca in 1978. His father also worked for IBM. In Boca, our family began going to Spanish River Presbyterian Church.  This is a daughter Church of  D. James Kennedy’s Church in Ft. Lauderdale.  This is where I began to learn about Christ.  I began going to Sunday School and a friend there invited me to the youth group. 
            In my senior year of high school I befriended a new girl who was involved in the World Wide Church of God or Armstrongism.  This church has changed since then and is no longer classified as a cult.  At that time however, this church taught that you should follow all the Levitical Law in the Old Testament much like Orthodox Judaism. So my friend and I would talk  about God and the Bible and how her church’s beliefs were different from my church’s. I started reading the Bible constantly. I visited her church a couple times and was reading all their pamphlets too. Also in my tumultuous senior year I began dating my neighbor and future husband, Bob. We constantly struggled with going too far in our physical relationship and my grades suffered. But all these experiences did make me realize I was a sinner and I surrendered my life to Christ and was born again. That was May of 1984. The things I went through as a teen make me able to empathize/relate to the problems teen girls face. I remember getting on my knees and asking God if  I should continue going to this strange church. So God lead me out of that church and I continued to go to Spanish  River Presbyterian. Bob and I were married there in 1986. We had our oldest child in 1987. Bob was hired (as an engineer) by the Warner Robins Air force Base in 1988. Since we've had four more children. We homeschooled from 1994-2003. I've been a stay-at-home mom and house-wife all through the years, also volunteering at church and my children's schools.     

Unfortunately, my husband and I are separated (Since 2014) and going to eventually divorce. I moved out of our large house in August of 2016. Our youngest is 16 and currently living with her dad in the big house. I live in our smaller house we had previously rented out.

I never thought this would happen to us but God is still at work in my life. I am writing poetry and blogging still (obviously;) I have a book of poetry that came out in 2015, The Seven Story Tree I have a children's book coming out this year called, "What Elephant?" (Which will also be a song!) Also my second book of poetry, "RED: Redeemed-Equipped-Delivered" should be out this year and my first Bible study book on Faith in my "The Seven Story House" Bible study series. I am currently working with a ministry to those who have been sex trafficked called "Out of Darkness" Would love to get a ministry job. I am also considering returning to college (perhaps online?) to become a Pastor.

Find me on most social media as "Redheaded Writing Hood"



Where then is my hope?
As for my hope, who can see it? Job 17:15

The Vision
It's in the morning sun, rising
It's in the green grass, thriving
In the mocking bird's song
Yes the days are long and lonely
But hope is rising
Sunday is coming
God is so loving
He's patient while I have my angry fit
God! I yell, No one gives a crap about me!
He says to me, You can be pitiful, Susan
Or POWERFUL it's your choice
I have a wise mentor
Her name is Joyce (Meyer)
She teaches me to be careful what I do
And think and say,
I must read the Bible everyday
There's LIFE in the Word!
Satan's only here to kill, steal and destroy
Yeah he wants to find you a boy toy
He'll ruin your life!
Fill it with strife
He's destroyed so many
He's an expert at deceit, temptation and defamation
Don't be ignorant of his devices
Or he will keep you in crisis
But the just shall live by faith
Trust God He'll make you better
Listen to Satan you'll be bitter
He wants you to be a quitter
But God says, Press on!
It won't be long!
For the vision is yet for an appointed time,
But at the end it shall speak and not lie.
Though it tarry,
wait for it,
because it will surely come;
and will not tarry.